I don't often post anything too personal, or much of my process work.. but I was moved my this blog post by Jess Gonacha at Treasuring a few days ago. I feel I can't even summarise it in many less words than her post, so you might just have to read it! It was about comparing ourselves to other artists/bloggers and creative people in general - feeling as though everyone else has it together and than beating ourselves up for not being perfect, because we assume everyone else is. As Jess said " It is easy to forget that it's just real people behind these internet facades, with real lives and real imperfections, just like me".
Jess went on to post a picture of herself in the morning, just how she was - no flattering light, no photoshop or anything.. Sometimes in blogland things just don't seem real - almost too perfect. We always post our best pieces, photos.. everything is so nice - but often not real. So here is me sharing a little of my reality today.
I decided to follow Jess's lead, and take a photo just how I was - this was me today, in my messy studio - if you look closely there is an ironing board still set up in the background, with a mountain of ironing on the floor. My desk is such mess I hardly have room for my painting. I didn't wash my hair - I don't think I even brushed it - and I definitely wasn't in a smiley mood. So there you have the reality of it - me.
Here is a little more reality for you - a painting at about hmmm... maybe the halfway mark. I would never normally post this, it is so much less than perfect right now - but I'm not perfect, and thats how it is sitting in my studio at the moment. I don't even know how it is going to turn out. I didn't even clean my palette or water for you, that's how I work - surrounded by an arty mess! So there you go.. while I like things to be perfect (I am a perfectionist by nature) and sometimes get frustrated when they're not - one of the things I value most in life and in people is honesty, and authenticity - so without waking myself up to take a photo of me still in bed at 10am - this is about as honest as it gets!